I have always been an emotional person, but having a child has made me even more emotional. I now cry at Eastenders and wedding shows, which I never used to do! I get angry quicker but I also have sudden huge overpowering feelings of pride that overcome me just out of the blue.
When Baba was first-born, Mr L and I had a huge sense of wow what have we done, we were so proud of the little being that we had created, but we were scared that we had to look after, protect and help this tiny little being grow. That was the scariest feeling of the whole thing.
Baba brings both of us so much joy, in showing him new things. I have said it before and will say it again, I wish I could put his excitement about things into a jar. Everything is amazing to him, and it is wonderful to see him get so excited and keep saying “wow” at things.
As quick as anything though that joy can turn to pain, terror and fear. Nothing prepares you for your baby being poorly and nothing is as scary as when they are really poorly and there is nothing you can do for them. This is a horrible feeling, you are helpless, tired, sad, and wish it was you and not them that was going through it.
Fortunately Baba bounced back and again he brought joy back into our lives and pride.
This was taken this father’s day. Daddy walking and his son trying to follow in his footsteps. I was filled with pride seeing this right in front of my eyes.
Children are emotional and it is not always easy emotions but they are always there for a reason and you quickly forget about the bad and remember the good.