Since Baba has started school, I am able to go to Rhianna’s grave whenever I feel like it. (I don’t like to push Baba to go, if he doesn’t want to then I will wait until a time I can go on my own, but him being at school has enabled me to do this)
There doesn’t have to be a reason to go, sometimes it is just nice to go up there, check it looks nice and nothing is dying up there.
After we had Boo and Mr L had gone back to work and Baba had gone back to school I had an urge to take Boo to Rhianna. This after all is Rhianna’s place and I don’t want either him or Baba to be worried about Rhianna’s grave. I want them to know where their sister is, I want them to find a little comfort there and want them to have a connection there.
It was a cold, but bright sunny day and it seemed a perfect day to take Boo there, there literally was not a cloud in the sky.
When the weather is like that the graveyard that Rhianna is in is beautiful, it is surrounded by the common and the sunshine beams down on Rhianna’s grave, so it was the right day.
We went up straight after dropping Baba at school, and we took a gradual stroll up to the grave. Once we were there I was talking to Boo and telling him about his sister, when the heavens literally opened.
I don’t know where the cloud appeared from, but it was a sharp hard rainy shower, and it was a downpour. Boo and I literally had to run back to the car, and I was soaked all the way through with all my effort going into keeping Boo dry. As soon as we got into the car the rain slowed down, it was still raining but nothing like it was as we were standing at Rhianna’s grave.
As we drove out of the car park, the rain finally stopped, making the shower a really short sharp heavy shower and then we drove down the hill and just seemed to drive into a rainbow. It was a brilliant bright rainbow and it seemed to be completely in front of us.
I came away feeling at peace, and feeling ok.
There was always a feeling that Rhianna would be replaced when Boo arrived, and that if she could see us that is what would be thought.
Going to her grave being drenched by the rain, and driving out into a rainbow, seemed like it was a sign.
A sign that everything was ok, that Boo was accepted and that it was all ok.